I had a doctors appointment yesterday. Usually they're just your basic, "how are you feeling?" & listening to Tai's heartbeat & then measuring me. This appointment was different this time around. My doctor had a student doctor & he was asked to check Tai's heartbeat. It took him nearly 10 minutes to find anything & they were the longest 10 minutes of my life. Eventually my doctor took over & my stress was relieved as soon as I heard her strong heartbeat.
The stress returned shortly after, unfortunately. My doctor took my measurements & said Tai was measuring small, about 3 weeks behind to be exact. As a mother, you never want to hear that your child may be different or that something is "wrong" with them. I began to ask questions & my doctor said not worry & that she would schedule me for an ultrasound. I schedule the ultrasound tomorrow & I'm extremely anxious to do so. I try to always remain positive in all situations but this one is wearing on me. I'd be lying if I said I'm not worried, I just want to know that she's okay. She continues to kick all day long & with each strong kick she ensures me that she's doing just fine.
After my appointment I called Sage & broke down My appointments are usually so quick & simple. This one was scary with not finding her heartbeat at first & then the news that she's measuring small. It was all too much for me to handle. I'm thankful for my husband who kept me calm & said that all would be well. Until the ultrasound, we'll continue to pray that everything will turn out to be perfectly okay & that our princess is growing normally.
xo.
Thursday, July 31, 2014
Monday, July 28, 2014
32 weeks & 3 days
52 days days, give or take, our second beautiful blessing will be here! As I get bigger I'm looking forward to having this gem here already. I can't complain much though, things in my pregnancy haven't been too bad.
How far along? 32 weeks & 3 days
Total weight gain/loss? 24 lbs. which I'm actually really happy about considering last time I gained over 50 lbs.
Maternity clothes? I always wear maternity clothes to work but at home I basically live in shorts, leggings, t-shirts & tank tops.
Stretch marks? Yes. Not too bad though, about the same amount I got when I was pregnant with Anelia.
Sleep? Not too bad but not great either. I have really bad heartburn just like I did with Anelia. Sage brought our recliner upstairs into our room & it's been a lifesaver! Tai doesn't like when I sit still so she kicks & moves constantly at night. I'm hoping her schedule will change when she arrives..
Best moment this week? Anelia kissing my belly & feeling Tai kick like crazy. She's far more active than I remember Anelia being & she's stronger too. She has really sharp elbows or knees and occasionally she causes me a lot of pain.
Miss Anything? Being able to pick up Anelia & hug her tight.
Movement? Yes, she's extremely active.
Food cravings? Watermelon!
Anything making you queasy or sick? Nope.
Have you started to show yet? Of course!
Gender? Girl
Labor Signs? I find myself getting occasional strong Braxton Hicks when I don't drink enough water. I'm trying to avoid anything that would cause labor to come soon. I have a wedding to attend in 2 weeks in Salt Lake.
Belly Button in or out? Not in but not out either, it's just a flat ugly circle. ha!
Wedding rings on or off? Off :(
Happy or Moody most of the time? Happy with a random mood swing every now & then. Sage might say differently though.. lol!
Looking forward to? Seeing my doctor this week!
Sunday, July 27, 2014
see you later's & mini vacations
This past week was pretty eventful, fun, yet sad. My brother, his wife, & a few of my nieces & nephew were visiting and we got to spend a few days with them. I love having my family here, I rarely see them so any opportunity I have to spend time with them is something I try to take full advantage of. We spent a lot of our days last week at my mom's house swimming & letting the kids play. Anelia loved having her cousins here! She never has anyone to play with so to see her have so much fun with them was priceless. However, she & her cousin Tina did get into a few brawls. It was quite amusing to say the least.
I loved having them here but wasn't veryhappy on why they were here. They came to help my mom pack up her house and move back to Salt Lake. Yep, you read correctly, my mom is moving back home to join the rest of my immediate family. *insert crying face here* The selfish part of me is so sad to see her go & wants her to stay but at the end of the day, I know she'll be far more happy to be with our entire family.
She recently got offered a higher paying job and I am so happy for her. When I moved here seven years ago she made a huge sacrifice for me and quit her job that she had been working at for over 10 years and sold our house. I could never thank her enough for that. I was really bummed when she called me & told me that she was going to be moving back. I held back my negative thoughts and tears because I was happy for her but as soon as we hung up I cried like a baby. A girl needs her mom, especially when you're pregnant. But I know she's just a phone call away. Luckily, we'll be traveling out to Salt Lake in two weeks so saying "see you later" was somewhat easier.
It's really hard not having my family here. So hard. I find myself always wishing I could just drive back to Salt Lake to see them but then I'm reminded about the horrible 6 hour drive that lies between us. Once I deliver this little princess I'll definitely be purchasing many flights home because I'm not a fan of road trips. I would take advantage of flying now but per my doctor, no flying for this momma.
Speaking of road trips, Sage had a bit of vacation he needed to use up so we took a quick trip to the beach with his family. We went to Crystal Cove in Laguna & it was beautiful. Sometimes California beaches are a hit or miss but Crystal Cove was such a nice, clean beach. We enjoyed it. I didn't go into the water, it was way too cold for my liking. I'm not much of a beach girl. I enjoy being at the beach but I'm not a fan of the water. The apple doesn't fall far from the tree because Anelia is the same way. She loves swimming but not in the ocean. I'm sure as she ages that'll change. I used to love the beach as a kid.
Ultimately, aside from having to see my mom go, this week was a lot of fun & I'm glad that we were able to spend quality time with both sides of our family.
xo, Ang
I loved having them here but wasn't very
She recently got offered a higher paying job and I am so happy for her. When I moved here seven years ago she made a huge sacrifice for me and quit her job that she had been working at for over 10 years and sold our house. I could never thank her enough for that. I was really bummed when she called me & told me that she was going to be moving back. I held back my negative thoughts and tears because I was happy for her but as soon as we hung up I cried like a baby. A girl needs her mom, especially when you're pregnant. But I know she's just a phone call away. Luckily, we'll be traveling out to Salt Lake in two weeks so saying "see you later" was somewhat easier.
It's really hard not having my family here. So hard. I find myself always wishing I could just drive back to Salt Lake to see them but then I'm reminded about the horrible 6 hour drive that lies between us. Once I deliver this little princess I'll definitely be purchasing many flights home because I'm not a fan of road trips. I would take advantage of flying now but per my doctor, no flying for this momma.
Speaking of road trips, Sage had a bit of vacation he needed to use up so we took a quick trip to the beach with his family. We went to Crystal Cove in Laguna & it was beautiful. Sometimes California beaches are a hit or miss but Crystal Cove was such a nice, clean beach. We enjoyed it. I didn't go into the water, it was way too cold for my liking. I'm not much of a beach girl. I enjoy being at the beach but I'm not a fan of the water. The apple doesn't fall far from the tree because Anelia is the same way. She loves swimming but not in the ocean. I'm sure as she ages that'll change. I used to love the beach as a kid.
Ultimately, aside from having to see my mom go, this week was a lot of fun & I'm glad that we were able to spend quality time with both sides of our family.
xo, Ang
Monday, July 14, 2014
seven years strong
Sage & I make seven years of being together tomorrow, July 15th. I can't believe how fast time has flown by over the years but I'm proud of where time has taken us and that we have become what we have. After seven years of being together we had a beautiful daughter who means everything & more to us, we became husband and wife, Sage has begun his lifelong career, we have another beautiful blessing on the way, we have a nice home to rest our heads and make memories in, a nice vehicle that allows us to get to where we need to comfortably... We have built a wonderful foundation for our growing family and we've done all of this TOGETHER. I'm so proud of us and how far we've come.
I knew of Sage because he played football with my cousin Sam. Sage & I met very briefly on New Years Eve when I was 16 while I was visiting family in Vegas. At that time neither of us were interested. It may have been the fact that Sage was nearly 2 feet shorter than me. It wasn't until I moved to Vegas in the summer of 2007 that we really got to know one another and made things official. At seventeen I didn't think I was going to marry Sage, I just knew I liked him and that he was basically my only friend in the entire city lol. It wasn't until I was nineteen that I knew this man was who I wanted to be with. Sage has always been a behind the scenes romantic and full time comedian. His jokes and sentimental gestures are what won me over. To this day he continues to surprise me with little love letters or makes gestures to let me know that he cares & loves me.
Some may argue that we haven't been together since this date because we had a few "breaks" in between. Just like any young, teenage couple we had our differences, ended things on a daily, weekly, or monthly basis due to selfishness and immaturity. As we aged things became better & ultimately, what's most important is that no matter how broken our relationship- we built from the bottom and let go of what we couldn't change. We focused on building a better future with and for one another. Not all high school sweethearts can say they made it as far as us, I'm thankful that we pushed through the trials because they only made us stronger.
I know I mention this a lot but I am truly thankful for Sage. Without him, I would most definitely be lost. I don't know where I'd be & don't want to even fathom the thought because life wouldn't be as wonderful or exciting if it wasn't for my handsome, hard working, kind, hilarious, sweet husband. I'll love him forever and look forward to all that we have in store for us and our family in the future.
Here's to many more years of growing, learning, and building together!
I knew of Sage because he played football with my cousin Sam. Sage & I met very briefly on New Years Eve when I was 16 while I was visiting family in Vegas. At that time neither of us were interested. It may have been the fact that Sage was nearly 2 feet shorter than me. It wasn't until I moved to Vegas in the summer of 2007 that we really got to know one another and made things official. At seventeen I didn't think I was going to marry Sage, I just knew I liked him and that he was basically my only friend in the entire city lol. It wasn't until I was nineteen that I knew this man was who I wanted to be with. Sage has always been a behind the scenes romantic and full time comedian. His jokes and sentimental gestures are what won me over. To this day he continues to surprise me with little love letters or makes gestures to let me know that he cares & loves me.
Some may argue that we haven't been together since this date because we had a few "breaks" in between. Just like any young, teenage couple we had our differences, ended things on a daily, weekly, or monthly basis due to selfishness and immaturity. As we aged things became better & ultimately, what's most important is that no matter how broken our relationship- we built from the bottom and let go of what we couldn't change. We focused on building a better future with and for one another. Not all high school sweethearts can say they made it as far as us, I'm thankful that we pushed through the trials because they only made us stronger.
I know I mention this a lot but I am truly thankful for Sage. Without him, I would most definitely be lost. I don't know where I'd be & don't want to even fathom the thought because life wouldn't be as wonderful or exciting if it wasn't for my handsome, hard working, kind, hilarious, sweet husband. I'll love him forever and look forward to all that we have in store for us and our family in the future.
Here's to many more years of growing, learning, and building together!
Sunday, July 6, 2014
29 weeks & 3 days
I was going through our old blog & came across my posts from my last pregnancy. I'm so glad that I kept track of my last pregnancy & documented how I was feeling. As I previously mentioned in my last post, it's funny what you forget about pregnancy once your baby arrives. I was reminded about many things & around what time certain things started happening to me while pregnant with Anelia.
This past weekend I spent sometime cleaning, doing laundry & trying to organize my mess of a house. At 29 weeks last time I had the urge to nest but I state that I never actually started because it was too "early." This time around is definitely not too early. We have a 3 bedroom, 3 bathroom home & I have a toddler who is a walking tornado so I have started nesting. I was really looking forward to when I'd hit this point because my house has been a serious mess. I still have a whole lot to complete and do but I definitely feel up to take care of it all.
I mention in one that my legs & feet started to swell around 30 weeks. I'm glad I mentioned this because I am going to try to prevent this from happening again this time around. I know certain things to avoid and to do so hopefully I won't end up with sausage toes & kankles this time around.
I haven't been experiencing anything crazy or different than the usual lately. Heartburn, occasional backache, etc. I'm currently at work & wishing I was home so I could be nesting & getting things ready. I'm even having the urge to clean & organize here at work, I'm going crazy! I'm hoping I remain this way for as long possible because I have so much I need to do. I'm constantly making "To Do" lists at work of things I want to complete when I get home.
Well here's to preparing for our sweet Tai to make her debut in 10 short weeks. Let's hope they fly by but not too quickly so I can get everything done.
xo, Ang
This past weekend I spent sometime cleaning, doing laundry & trying to organize my mess of a house. At 29 weeks last time I had the urge to nest but I state that I never actually started because it was too "early." This time around is definitely not too early. We have a 3 bedroom, 3 bathroom home & I have a toddler who is a walking tornado so I have started nesting. I was really looking forward to when I'd hit this point because my house has been a serious mess. I still have a whole lot to complete and do but I definitely feel up to take care of it all.
I mention in one that my legs & feet started to swell around 30 weeks. I'm glad I mentioned this because I am going to try to prevent this from happening again this time around. I know certain things to avoid and to do so hopefully I won't end up with sausage toes & kankles this time around.
I haven't been experiencing anything crazy or different than the usual lately. Heartburn, occasional backache, etc. I'm currently at work & wishing I was home so I could be nesting & getting things ready. I'm even having the urge to clean & organize here at work, I'm going crazy! I'm hoping I remain this way for as long possible because I have so much I need to do. I'm constantly making "To Do" lists at work of things I want to complete when I get home.
Well here's to preparing for our sweet Tai to make her debut in 10 short weeks. Let's hope they fly by but not too quickly so I can get everything done.
xo, Ang
Tuesday, July 1, 2014
who doesn't love surprises
It's funny how after you have your baby you completely forget all the negatives you dealt with during your pregnancy. For example, I completely forgot how badly I had heartburn and how terribly my back felt during my pregnancy with Anelia. Now that I am experiencing those things again, I am fully reminded.
My back pain has been the biggest issue of this pregnancy at this point. It's terrible. I have never been so uncomfortable in my life, not even in my last pregnancy. I've been trying to do stretches daily to ease the pain but at times nothing seems to help.
Yesterday the pain was endless, I couldn't sit up or walk without constant pain. My sweet Sage must have seen that I was really hurting because he decided to surprise me with a one hour prenatal massage at Green Valley Ranch Resort Spa. Just out of the goodness of his heart & I didn't even ask for it. However, I have mentioned getting one later on & closer to my due date but he obviously saw that I needed one now.
Funny side story: When he told me that he had set up a massage for me, he called it a "paternity" massage... haha! I also did not believe him whatsoever because Sage is quite the jokester. I often can't tell if he's being serious or joking. It took him showing me his call history to know that he wasn't lying and that he really did set everything up for me.
The spa at GVR was gorgeous! It was my first time ever going somewhere so fancy for a treatment and it's something I'll never forget. They had a steam room, sauna, multiple Jacuzzis, fully loaded hair stations, and a bar with plenty of delicious snacks and drinks. It was heavenly. Although, I will admit that I would have loved for Sage to be there to share in the experience. I usually enjoy myself more when I have someone there with me to experience it all as well. I told Sage that next time we have to do a couples massage & go together.
I'm so very thankful that I have been blessed with Sage. We hit our 7 years anniversary on the 15th of this month and I don't know how I got so lucky. Just like any other relationship we have our days where we don't get along too well or it's best for us to keep our distance but for the most part, majority of the time, he & I get along perfectly and we love each other's company. I love him & I can't say enough how grateful I am that he's been in my life for 7 years!
My back pain has been the biggest issue of this pregnancy at this point. It's terrible. I have never been so uncomfortable in my life, not even in my last pregnancy. I've been trying to do stretches daily to ease the pain but at times nothing seems to help.
Yesterday the pain was endless, I couldn't sit up or walk without constant pain. My sweet Sage must have seen that I was really hurting because he decided to surprise me with a one hour prenatal massage at Green Valley Ranch Resort Spa. Just out of the goodness of his heart & I didn't even ask for it. However, I have mentioned getting one later on & closer to my due date but he obviously saw that I needed one now.
Funny side story: When he told me that he had set up a massage for me, he called it a "paternity" massage... haha! I also did not believe him whatsoever because Sage is quite the jokester. I often can't tell if he's being serious or joking. It took him showing me his call history to know that he wasn't lying and that he really did set everything up for me.
The spa at GVR was gorgeous! It was my first time ever going somewhere so fancy for a treatment and it's something I'll never forget. They had a steam room, sauna, multiple Jacuzzis, fully loaded hair stations, and a bar with plenty of delicious snacks and drinks. It was heavenly. Although, I will admit that I would have loved for Sage to be there to share in the experience. I usually enjoy myself more when I have someone there with me to experience it all as well. I told Sage that next time we have to do a couples massage & go together.
I'm so very thankful that I have been blessed with Sage. We hit our 7 years anniversary on the 15th of this month and I don't know how I got so lucky. Just like any other relationship we have our days where we don't get along too well or it's best for us to keep our distance but for the most part, majority of the time, he & I get along perfectly and we love each other's company. I love him & I can't say enough how grateful I am that he's been in my life for 7 years!
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