I had a doctors appointment yesterday. Usually they're just your basic, "how are you feeling?" & listening to Tai's heartbeat & then measuring me. This appointment was different this time around. My doctor had a student doctor & he was asked to check Tai's heartbeat. It took him nearly 10 minutes to find anything & they were the longest 10 minutes of my life. Eventually my doctor took over & my stress was relieved as soon as I heard her strong heartbeat.
The stress returned shortly after, unfortunately. My doctor took my measurements & said Tai was measuring small, about 3 weeks behind to be exact. As a mother, you never want to hear that your child may be different or that something is "wrong" with them. I began to ask questions & my doctor said not worry & that she would schedule me for an ultrasound. I schedule the ultrasound tomorrow & I'm extremely anxious to do so. I try to always remain positive in all situations but this one is wearing on me. I'd be lying if I said I'm not worried, I just want to know that she's okay. She continues to kick all day long & with each strong kick she ensures me that she's doing just fine.
After my appointment I called Sage & broke down My appointments are usually so quick & simple. This one was scary with not finding her heartbeat at first & then the news that she's measuring small. It was all too much for me to handle. I'm thankful for my husband who kept me calm & said that all would be well. Until the ultrasound, we'll continue to pray that everything will turn out to be perfectly okay & that our princess is growing normally.
xo.
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