one month

Tai's due date is exactly one month away as of today.  Seriously?  This pregnancy has come & gone but I'm noticing that as I become more uncomfortable, the days are passing a little bit more slowly. 

Sage & I still have a lot we need to do & buy.  I didn't realize how much we needed until I made a complete list & let me tell you, it's a long one!  We've got to get our heads on straight & get things moving because Tai will be here before we know it. 

For the past three days now I've been experiencing strong Braxton Hicks to really strong cramping.  Some are so strong that they take my breath away or cause me to freeze up due to the pain.  I never experienced any of this with Anelia, no pain at all until I was in labor.  I'm not going to get my hopes up & say that Tai will be here early but chances are looking more & more likely with each day of contractions.  They haven't been consistent but on Sunday night they were.  For nearly two hours they kept coming & were 5 minutes apart.  Sage was at work & Tai would have been too early so I relaxed, drank lots of water & laid on the my side & things slowly went away, thank goodness.  However, if something like that should happen after my 37th week, I'll definitely try to keep the ball rolling.

As much as I'd love to have Tai be here now, we aren't ready.  Her room isn't ready, furniture isn't where it needs to be, I haven't even got one pack of diapers... yeah, it's THAT bad.  Don't judge.  The list honestly goes on & on.  My "nesting" stage has disappeared but last night I tried to get things together & started washing all of Tai's stuff & setting up her room.  I'm hoping to be very productive these next four weeks so that everything is in place and order when she arrives. 

Aside from the madness of getting things together I am extremely excited for our little baby to make her debut.  I've wanted this for so long & can't wait for Anelia to experience the joys of having a sibling.  I would be lying if I said I wasn't nervous.  My main concern and making sure I continue to show Anelia that she is loved & spend equal time tending to each of my girls' needs.  I know it won't come easy & I know that I'll have my days full of tears & breakdowns... not only from Anelia if you catch my drift.  I'm confident in myself and Sage.  We're a great team and with plenty of prayers and patience, we'll catch onto having two beautiful girls eventually. 

So, let the countdown begin. xo!