April 7, 2013

While at work I decided to tune in and watch the LDS General Conference.  I am LDS, I was born and raised in the church.  Although I haven't always lived my life the way the church advises, I have always loved the gospel and I know in my heart that regardless of my mistakes, the Lord loves me.  Everytime I listen to conference or attend church I hear exactly what I need to hear.  As soon as I hear certain message that relates to my trails I am always so overwhelmed with emotion.  I love that I can feel the Lord's love and message to me through the talks given during conference. 

I was able to listen to two talks about family and raising our children to be children of God as well as another about Marriage.  While tuning in my phone kept ringing and I had to assist a resident in purchasing show tickets.  I wasn't able to catch the entire talks but what I heard is what I needed to hear.  One of the talks told us how we need to spend more time with family and less time on our cell phones or watching tv.  I won't lie, I am definitely guilty of being on my phone too much.  I am going to make it a goal for myself that I don't use my phone unless it's a call or important text while I am with Ane and Sage.  I want to limit my social network use as well.  The amount of time I spend on my phone could be spent doing fun activities with Ane.  Don't get me wrong, I do spend time with Ane and we do fun things like going to the park and play but I want to spend more quality time with her by removing my cellphone from the picture.

Another thing mentioned in this talk was speaking to our family members as if we wouldn't see them again.  This hit me hard because Sage & I had a small arguement last night and instead of swallowing my pride and saying sorry, I left with Ane.  Life is too short  to go on without making amends with those we love.  I personally, lose sleep when I'm not well with those who mean most to me.  I have to make things right because you just never know what could happen to myself or the person I am bickering with. 

Here are a few small goals I am setting for myself thanks to today's general conference:
1.  Leave my phone in my purse when I arrive home from work and leave it there.  There are a few acceptions I'm going to make like if Ane does something cute or exciting and I have to get a picture of it ;)
2.  Be more kind to Sage and only say kind things to him.  I have a tendancy of joking with him and being a little too cruel.  That's something I hope to change.
3.  Respect my loved ones.  I tend to take my loved ones for granted and I'm not always as respectful as I should be. 
4.  Spend more quality time with my family.
5.  Sing primary songs with Ane and do activites that incorporate the Lord.  I currently work on Sundays so Ane & I have not been able to attend church as often as I would like. 

I've set a few personal goals for myself as well.  These goals won't be reached overnight and are things I will progressively to do overtime.  I know that if I pray daily and keep the faith the Lord will encourage me when I struggle to complete and stick with these goals.

I am gratful for this gospel that always teaches me to better myself and my family.  I may not live my life as I always should but the Lord knows where my heart is.

p.s. This is off subject but I had to share that our trip to Hawaii is in 4 days.  We leave Wednesday night and I'm so excited!